I finished Lauren Oliver’s BEFORE I FALL, yesterday and if it wasn’t my high school made over…oh my gosh. Down to the flowers on Valentine’s Day! Those who say the cliques and sterotypes persented in YA aren’t realistic, you didn’t go to high school with me.
This book brought me right back and I started analyzing myself as if I were a character in one of today’s YA books.
There always seems to be a Queen Bee/King and his/her followers in all groups, whether it’s the band circle, the jocks, the “popular” types, etc.
They each have their leader and they each have their followers.
I started looking at the people I surrounded myself with and even as an adult, I realize I’m drawn to stronger personalities. Not that I don’t have a strong personality of my own, because I do, but I’m not the take charge, leader type at all.
Then I started questioning if that was a good thing or a bad thing. Is there a need for a dominant personality in a group of people for it to work? I don’t really have the answer for that. I see pros and cons with both sides.
A positives is that there’s someone to make decisions – to make things happen. That’s nice if you’re typically an indecisive person because otherwise, you may just wind up stuck in your house for days on end. That would be really boring. Plus, strong personalities liven things up a lot and make you want to be near them.
But on the negative side, it makes you question if you are really in control of the decisions you make (or made). This is a big one. I came to the realization a while ago that I was tired of not standing up for what I believe in or want. It’s no way to live your life. This is a theme explored in BEFORE I FALL, as well, and it’s one worth noting.

So basically, I realized that I will probably always be a worker bee and never a Queen Bee, but that’s really okay. As long as I’m aware of the pitfalls of that role and to avoid them, I’m at peace with that.
Have you ever though about your position before? Where do you think you fit in and how does it make you feel? Pros? Cons?
