Meet writer me:

I’m one of those people that keeps my writing a secret with a few exceptions  Why?  Well, there are a lot of reasons.

~ I don’t want people to think I’m an insane person or delusional or both.

~ I don’t want people to ask me questions about what I’m writing because it always sounds stupid when I try to explain it.  This is why query letters scare the pee out of me, though I’m slowly getting better with summarizing.  It’s a process, people!

~ I just don’t want to face the questions: When are you going to be done?  When are you going to be published?  And then not have anything to tell them if I don’t.  I don’t mind if I only end up writing for myself, but I just don’t want beady, judgey eyes looking at me through this process.

I don’t know.  Some times I think I should be more open about it, but I’ve had some unpleasant reactions when I’ve decided to share, so that draws me back into my turtle shell.  But then, my husband, whom I love dearly, tells people all the time what I’m doing, and really, that’s what matters.  The people I love are proud of me.

Still, it’s scary to put yourself out there.  Granted, I use my real name and people see this that I know in real life and that’s okay.  It’s just when I have to look at someone in the eye and tell them what I’m doing face to face, it’s scary.

I know I’m rambling, but this is just something I’ve been thinking about lately.

Sharing my secret feels like my ceiling and walls all turn into this:

Granted, now that I look at that picture, it seems as if they are all baby eyes.  I don’t think my walls really turn into baby eyes judging me, but you get the picture. :-P

How would you handle it?

For dreaming purposes, let’s say you won $240 million in the lottery.  What would you do with it?  Invest, splurge, both, what?

A late night conversation prompted this.

Speaking of money…

The parenting forum I run is hosting a March of Dimes drive.  A year ago, a few of our moms were hit with some devastating losses and to honor them and all moms that have lost children or had children born prematurely, we are trying to raise money.  I’ve donated and it would be awesome if you would like to chip in.  Here is the link if you are interested (it’s tax deductable):