It took me a  long time to be satisfied with how I looked.  I never thought I was ugly really, but not extraordinary.

I’m short (5’5″), not exactly thin, have zero fashion sense, and don’t really have any standout features.  In high school, it made me really sad and even though that was my skinny time, I still thought I needed to lose, “just 5 more pounds.”  Thankfully, I liked food too much, so I maintained a healthy weight. ;-)

As a teenager, being average was so frustrating.  I couldn’t figure out why I hadn’t gotten lucky like the movie stars and the models.  Now I know why…it’s all fake! 

Are there people who are naturally beautiful?  Of course, but a lot of what we see is smoke and mirrors, which sets up an unrealistic expectation for ourselves.  This is something I really discovered when I found the liquify tool in photoshop, fyi.

So, the point?  Embrace yourself for your own type of beauty!  You’ve got to believe it for others to see it. People who have confidence radiate beauty – and it really is the truth, not a message from an afterschool special. ;-)

So, last Thursday, I walked into my son’s daycare to pick him up.  I was handed a letter that said they would be closing effective the following Friday due to money.

Yep.  One week.

This was a very established daycare!  I went through different stages…crying, denial, acceptance, and now I’m in panic mode.  Picking a daycare is a big deal because you have to trust those people with your world.  I’m just sick because I can’t seem to find a place that makes me as happy as his old one.

I know this isn’t very interesting to anyone, but I’m almost in tears about it again.  It was already horribly difficult for me to make the transition from stay at home mom to working mom, but that was made a little easier because I was at peace with our daycare selection.  Now I feel as if I am starting completely over. 

Ugh.

On another note, I’m working on my Halloween short story.  I thought it would be easy, but trying to be inventive is difficult when pretty much every angle under the sun has been done. 

Werewoves?  Vampires?  All really popular, so…I don’t even know.  Creative juices please begin to flow!

Once I get it nailed down, I’ll post it for all to read.  Maybe you will get a few chuckles. :- P

No, not my husband (thank the Lord – I’ve never had to even worry about it), but a friend of mine found out that her husband has been having an affair for the last two months.  They have a two year old and a four month old baby.  How could someone do that to their family?  I just don’t get how anyone could be so totally selfish.

Forget what it is doing to his wife, but what about his children?  How could he look into their faces and then go out to continue his affair?

The sad fact of it all is that more people are unfaithful than not, I’m afraid.  Why is that?  If you don’t think you can be faithful or won’t be happy being with one woman/man, then don’t-get-married.  It’s not that difficult.  You canNOT have your cake and eat it, too.   I’m sure people are afraid that they will lose someone they care about if they don’t marry, but if you really, truly cared, you would do one of two things:

1) Get married and be faithful.

2) Be a man/woman and let the person go so they can find someone who will treat them with dignity and respect.

So, for the people who read this..don’t be a jerk and cheat.  Period. 

I rarely see issues as black and white, but this one is.  There is NO gray area that justifies cheating.  None.  Nada.  Ain’t there. 

*steps off of soapbox*